The downside of brain surgery

I got a check up MRi on 07.11.11 and I go to Dr. Oro on AUG 1st for him to read it and tell me how I am doing. Even though I feel good, if he tells me all looks good it will be an extra piece of mind.

BUT, tonight while I was at the pool, I stood up from my chair (with Ryan in my arms) and I went to step backwards and walk around the table.  I tripped over a stupid curb and fell backwards landing HARD on the concrete (with an extra 45lbs on me from Ryan)  I landed right on my ass and hit my back/shoulder on the picnic table behind me.  Initially I didn't hurt (and I was glad I only had 5-6 people who witnessed the clumsy fall) BUT, as time passed and my anxiety about my fall set in I was a wreck.  I left the pool early and went home for some advil and rest.  I tried to take my mind off of my fall, so I went to sleep early.  I woke up about midnight and assessed.  I was tingly almost head to toe.  Even my lips seemed numb.  How much of this was stress? anxiety?  and how much damage did i actually do.  The pisser is - when Dr. Oro reads my MRI, will I be able to celebrate the good news (assuming that is what my MRI will show?)  or will a little of me think that i ruined the surgery with that fall..??  I jostled my brain, and just hope i didn't jostle that metal plate loose!

This is something that will always be in the back of my mind (no pun intended) and every time i fall or have an accident - my fears will resurface.  There is the downside of brain surgery.  (regardless of how great i feel daily)